Flicker

I had my much awaited sono and appt on Friday, 13th. Good thing I am not superstitious. We sat in the waiting room, my feet were tapping in anticipation, I read 4 magazines without even looking at the words. When my name finally got called to come back, I felt a surge of panic. "What if there is no baby?" "What if there is but no heartbeat?" We walked back to the room, the same exact room where we were told our last baby was gone. She flipped off the lights and the exam began. I immediately saw a sac with something inside it. She quickly steered away from it and measured other things. NOTE: Don't do this to someone that is on the verge of a breakdown. She finally got back to the little sac and blob, and before she could even say it, I began crying. The little flicker was so obvious and beautiful. She let me watch with tear filled eyes for a good 2-3 minutes. It was heaven. I am only 7 weeks so the baby is not even distinguishable yet, so we still have some weeks ahead that we must get through. But seeing a heartbeat, and a strong one 134bpm, lowers chance of miscarriage by 75%. We quickly met with Dr.Cooper and she set me up for a ultrasound in 2 weeks. She just wants to watch me closely and make my worry lessened. She said that if in 2 weeks the heartbeat is still strong and things look good, we will more than likely carry to term. I am only think positive thoughts and thinking of our future!! Here is a little pic of or baby, or blob at this point!

Eggshells

The days seem to be creeping by at a snails pace. Why is it that every other woman's pregnancy flies by and mine stands still.Everyday seems like a mall victory! Everyday I get closer to my goal of seeing the baby and seeing a heartbeat. I think that once I physically see that flicker I will ease up. I do have some positive things on my side: I feel pregnant! Last time I felt pregnant for a few days and then felt normal. I chalked that up to "every pregnancy is different", and "be happy your not sick"! Well this one is the total opposite! I haven't been sick but definitely feel a little woozy throughout the day. The big symptom I have is FATIGUE! It has struck with a vengeance! I have so much energy in the morning but come 3-4pm I cant get off the couch. I was soooo tired yesterday and had to pee so bad that I seriously contemplated peeing on a towel just so I didn't have to get up!! Hahahah! Don't worry, it crossed my mind, but what kind of example would I be setting for my girls! I am still going to the gym but moderating my workouts and keeping my heart rate low. its tough for someone that only feels a workout consists of total fatigue and being on the verge of puking after every workout. This is tough. I went for blood work this past Monday and got my results:

Hcg-5,275
progesterone-10.1

Both levels are great according to Dr. Cooper. The nurse however said she thought my Progesterone was a tad low. Thanks for the worry!! one more thing for me to stress out about. The Dr. reassured me that all my levels are right where they should be. We went ahead and scheduled my first appointment. i will go next Friday the 13th! How fitting!!! A sono, blood work and meeting with Dr. cooper are all in the agenda. I cant wait to see a heartbeat!! I will be 7 weeks, and I know you can see a flicker by then. i am still nervous, since my last experience with an ultrasound did not go well. I will update as soon as I can. I cant wait to start this journey and take you all along with me!

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New York, New York

I have since recovered from our long trip to New York. We arrived on Tuesday July 13Th and from then on it was go go go! Going to NY always makes me feel refreshed and whole again. Living out here in Kansas I don't have a single family member, at times it can get very lonely. Especially when I see or hear of my friends always getting together with their families. It does however make me appreciate my Parents and sister so much more and to also cherish every moment we DO spend together.

We had a blast, we went to the children's museum, the rose gardens, spa day(my favorite), Lake Placid, had a huge BBQ. When it came time for the dreaded flight home I sulked all day. Wes saw how sad I was and went ahead and extended my trip by a whole week. What a husband!! The girls and I were able to spend 7 more days with my parents and sister. During that time we went to the horse races, the park, played in the pool, and spent many hours just enjoying one another. We plan on returning in December for my sisters College graduation so it wont be too long before I see them again. I will leave ya with some pics from our trip!!







And a little souvenir we took home with us...



More details to come in the following weeks!! We are thrilled!
*****disclosure***** we have not told all our family or friends yet, waiting for my first appt! So please no Facebook comments or anything else. I just had to tell my blogger buddies:-)